i have been meaning to update this blog so many times this week and have started a couple of posts, i had some deep and meaningful topics on my mind, and never got past the first couple of lines without being distracted, usually by my pillow, duvet and the few dark, quiet hours i share with the blissful place of unconscious-ness……

Anyway this week has gone by in a bit of a blur…

Ben seems to be over his nasty chest infection and has thankfully stopped having night sweats. Which was very good news for him and even better for me and the washing machine! 

Isaac had a parents evening which went very well. He is doing really well but apparently needs to work a bit on his 'presentation'…..being as he is six and a short 18 months ago could barely write his name…we are not worried about his presentation. I took some pics of his work with my phone which i promise to upload to show…

Matilda had immunisations this week, Maisie and Poppy also had some overdue ones..so we went for the hat trick and got them all done. Which was okay, managed to drag a recovering Ben along to help me and they all had a good cry and then were pacified with some chocolate, obviously not Matilda!!

Its just been a busy week. Its a bit like those tight- rope walkers who carry loads of boxes or things and seem to be perfectly balanced. One extra thing can make them over balance. We have so much going on and largely we seem to be able to balance it out fairly well but when a few extra curve balls come at you it gets a bit tricky!!

Finally managed to get most of the thank yous off. We are exceptionally blessed by the people on our church and we get meals made for us for a few weeks after baby is born. Its fantastic and most of the people who are making the meals already have busy family lives and so i like to acknowledge and thank them for taking the time to bless us. Here is the finished article (thanks to my wonderful cyber friend Mel!)

ps..if you dont have one yet and you sent a pressie or made a meal, its on its way

xx

it will be good to have him back…i miss him..

these are some sunflowers, i think, that the girls planted at a playgroup i go to every week. It was a few weeks ago and i diligently wrapped them in their little plastic bags and brought them home. Only to find them the other day still wrapped in the bags and under a pile of stuff on the window sill. Look what had happened…would you believe it..life sprouted despite me not doing a thing!! It brought a smile to my face. So needless to say they are now 'out' of their plastic bags and sat on the window sill. I will try and do a bit of nuturing but not promising anything okay?

Another beautiful day. Although we are still thwarted by illness in the house. Flu type, cold thing. Im hoping that it misses me. I have such incredible admiration and respect for single parents…oh..my..how do you do it? Ben has been unwell for two days now and the burden of the majority of the childcare and house keeping is all falling to me and I feel exhausted. Hoping the weekend will see things improve!!

leaving you with a touch of spring…

degrees C…that is a very warm spring day for the UK, sometimes even summer temps and today it has been sunny and bright and felt like spring is really here. Although knowing the crazy weather we have it will be snowing by the end of the month!! I really needed to see the sun today because I am struggling with tiredness again. I can actually deal with the 'lack' of sleep if I only have myself to deal with…but thats just not the case. The faitugue pushes me to the edge of my reasonable self and i feel bad for the children having a sleep deprived and short fused mummy.

Our little babba has been out of sorts today as well, pretty uppity and didint want to be put down for much time at all. I think her cold is bothering her and she doesn't know how to do anything else when she is cranky other than cry .So that is what we have had today…

Been out in the garden today and let the sun warm her face. Wow, i love it when the sun appears again. It feels like I am waking up for spring as well as all the plants. I have moments when i do honestly feel very energized,  despite the foggy-ness of fatigue still settling behind my eyes for the majority of the time. But then when i look at the very reason for my tiredness and near inability to maintain thoughts for long, this beautiful little face, it seems infinately worth it.

night xx

she is 8 weeks old today…8 weeks. It feels like just moments have passed since she was born and yet i spoke to a friend who is 8 weeks from her due date and lamenting that it seems 'such' a long time. All about perception….

She should be having her first set of immunisations this week but wont be due to an apparent shortage of health visitors. Its kind of a good thing because she is still poorly and rattling around a cold in her upper airway that makes her snoring at night so much worse and makes me exist on tiny micro sleeps because I am sub consciously so aware of her breathing.

She is all smiles now, she has figured out, i think, who these smallish people are in the house and watches them a lot. Sometimes with a big smile and sometimes with what looks like a bit of confusion.

She seems to still have that 'monkey falling from a branch' thing going on. When babies arms fly out, kind of like they would if they were falling backwards. She does that a lot.

She seems to love the baby bjorn still. I tried her facing outwards the other day and she would have none of it. Likes to snuggle in thanks very much.

She isnt a big fan of being away from a warm body at the moment. Can't say i blame her.

She is still not looking much different to when she was born. Chubbier but essentially she is keeping the blue eyes (at the moment) and keeping her lovely mohawk hair.

Sometimes I just pick her up and squeeze her…oh..how i love the bones of her…

Still calling her Matilda, but Tilly is creeping in at times…

Still find myself amazed by the fact that I have four children, when im walking home from school and all three of the big ones are running off in front of me caught up in some wild racing game or singing made up songs to make each other laugh, the love i feel for them almost makes me catch my breath. 

🙂